“Evolve or Repeat.” This came from the article that I wrote a while ago, where I was just embodying that internally until my mind started catching up right now through giving me unexpected decisions and movement that I’ve realised came from a place of seeing vulnerability as a threat that knocks on the door wearing my own face.

I believe this article was when I just got my soul-upgraded lenses through the back of my bones that made me feel like I was in that incarnation state where everything became neutral, yet daunted me because that time I was in that “new beginning based on what I intentionally coded myself into". That led me to redecorate the garden of my favourite flowers as a way of starting to normalise inner safety consistently until it becomes my default system. It was such an interesting experience until I enjoyed this a little bit too much that my mind started to pick my skin out in a way that reality started to reproduce more experiences that led me to start making new decisions based on who I truly am…

Now this is the part that gets me so excited, but scared at the same time… This is the part where I either took that level of vulnerable layer of safety that I had never been putting myself into, or let that old script that my mind had accumulated for years make me easily just reuse, and nonetheless, she knew that the end would be the same. It’s that new level of courage that you want to teach yourselves, that new level of blank canvas where the only tool you can trust is that inner belief assumption that you’ve planted inside your garden. It’s time to reintroduce your system to a different level of life that includes you acting from a place of courage and vulnerability in order for you to get where you want to be. I remembered what I said; it was simply about normalising your desire inside your system. Well, it does until my mind starts catching up, and reality starts throwing me these new scenes that I forgot ever existed in the beginning. Within that, I need to start focusing more… It’s when it starts to include more people inside your system that I realise it really takes much of my energy to be fully present; otherwise, the mind will immediately take that main driver seat inside my body to start giving me that meaning-making narrative of the moment and situation that I have.

It’s that level of how you really show up as a whole package consistently as that main character inside of every moment that is happening through you without you collapsing into one specific identity alone… It’s about that mind game that you will consistently put yourself into by using your thoughts and emotions for how you want to perceive in every situation. But the truth is, if you are always in that present moment in every situation you have, your mind won’t recall that as something that you need to digest, because it is aligned with your inner agreement, which steers that body inside of you and the way you show up in the world. It’s that containment of how you stay inside that main character without changing, and let your body start consuming that contrasting feeling but metabolise that instead for the way it is. It was never about how life puts you through, but rather how you intentionally decide how to respond to the life that you want by not taking everything seriously, but prioritising what feels right and not internalising until reality starts to reflect that through external eyes.

To get there, you want to check that garden inside your heart to simply see yourself in a way that shows how your system has been normalising what safety feels like through your experience in your life. For me, I used to be someone who was in that state of vigilance, anticipating outcomes and approval as something that kept my system hooked. Therefore, reality used to give exactly that replica of how I self-coded myself into those lenses. That 5% of my mind that made me always feel and think that way…. Another thing was that constant dopamine hits to keep my system awake the whole time, which led my system to have that illusion of “fireworks” and “what’s next” sensation that my body used to produce…

It took me a while until my mind healed from that instant hit that made me realise that every movement that you do from your system is coming from the identity that used to keep you alive inside. When I channel that back to what I want the universe to actually provide me for, the more it gets revealed behind the scenes – the life that humans have. subconsciously. The universe only gives us the things that feel most aligned with how we show up in the world, which comes from a full set of inner coherence between who you are and the motion itself that you create inside. It’s never about you using your mind to show or prove, but how to live inside that body as the way you want your mind to produce that for you. It’s that blank canvas that you have every day, but you still do it anyway because you already know the script that smells like your future destination. The only way to do that is to really be that future character until it becomes your default system permanently, and everything you want will look as obvious as it gets because you are so aligned with that character inside the whole time. When that happens, you no longer call that a miracle, but rather an of-course gesture that you wink through the universe that’s been living inside your body every single moment of your time.

So, make yourself become visible in a way that your future self will normally live in. Which means you want to start to live in a different flavour of new possibilities that is full of uncertainty but absolutely miraculous.

I hope you have a great weekend and see you next time. /wink/

Your Subconscious Besties,

Liona