This morning... I woke up feeling amaaa-zing. I guess it's because I had a really nice dream last night, from what I can recall.
I put my feet on the ground, realising I am alive and this is a new beginning; walked myself to open the curtain and brushed my lashes; told myself it’s been a while since I have had this fresh energy within me; and smiled at myself
I changed myself with my walking outfit and took myself for a nice walk to start my day right. I’ve found myself listening to these motivational podcasts. It started me listening to a Brené Brown podcast until my mind was just starting to feel overstimulated for an early morning, then I decided to blast my brain with my favourite daddy manifestation instead.
Neville Goddard, the king and only human podcast that I might’ve just invested myself in. During walking, I’ve found myself starting to get confused between walking, focusing on the street that I’ve walked on, and starting to focus on him.
I’ve realised, damn, it was such a quiet effort to make everything work well and beautifully. It got me thinking: which role was I doing during that walk? Is it coming from the role I'm trying to just walk and enjoy my time, or learning about myself through re-listening to that same podcast over and over again? Or could it be both?
Side note: I did this 2 years ago, but this morning, I’ve taught myself that it’s been a while not reopening this new gate through me again.
And here’s what I’ve found is the most interesting thing for me to have:
I think, from what I can recall, everything that is happening through us only appears right now at that moment in life, of the action itself that we choose for ourselves as a starter way of how we choose to start our day. And what I’ve realised is the way I’ve shown up for myself has not been fully all in, not in a bad way, but more of the kind of way I’ve been just fully showing up as who I am when it comes to my work.
Not complaining, because the work purpose that I’ve done now is coming from my own manifestation that I had 2 years ago, when I was imagining this life that I’ve had now.
But also more of what I need right now that will put me into the next step of what life and the universe can offer me. Just because this 2 years ago put me into a specific type of isolation, stillness, silence, and not really engaging much with people because the soul wanted to specifically experience the career that I’ve currently built for myself.
However, it is happening to me right now, but the other part of me that I’ve used to playing it kind of started to disappear; it might have been replaced with fear or doubt about who I truly am. It can be as simple as practising myself to start a conversation with people that I’ve just met or building a connection.
Well, talking about a connection puts me back to a previous podcast about what Brené Brown said about the roles between personal and career that she did for herself, and it came from a different way of showing up. And she said something that captured my mind a lot. Something about her values of what she’s been holding up on:
“Courageous and Faithful.” She said something about not just being faithful specifically towards religion and God itself, but also the lifestyle that we’ve been holding on to. That came from a courageous step that you choose to do that feels so unfamiliar, but you have that faith over the action that you choose for yourself that will lead you to something better. Those values that compound will eventually bring that type of identity and role that you’ve wanted to internally experience for your life. And it takes consistent practices of the new motion of that future-identity that you’ve wanted to be, and sometimes you might find yourself getting back into those old beliefs through what you think is coming from who you were. Therefore, I’ve created this Restoration Library when you know that you are still in the journey of working on your own rhythm:
And I think, having listened to her and moved to those Neville Goddard ones, from how I can recall, it came with this one specific conclusion that my brain learned:
It is about everything that came from each part of who you are becoming right now through each action, decision, and movement that only came from what your future purpose is that you currently want to experience. It means through the type of belief that you nourish yourself with each time you show up on that specific chapter that you currently have on you. The way you speak comes from how you want to experience it, meaning how you can communicate and do that action itself by taking that courageous step that just simply came from an unfamiliar or simply practicing that future role inside your life now.
It is truly about how much you’ve invested on re-learning about the part of you that needed to be recognize as something that you’ve can see if it still helping you to get where you want to be, or it has been expired and needed to get some upgraded through how you change that role, perhaps the type of routines that you’ve been doing, lifestyle, environments, decisions, reactions…
All of these are simply constantly evolving human natures that we should always be eager to improve while we are still living inside this material world. For me, it could be the way I communicate and practise the role of how I start to just allow myself to exist in busier places without letting my system go into an immediate shutdown. Or maybe take myself to a social networking event that is aligned with the type of work that I’ve been doing, to practice the way I show up for myself and by letting the role that I’ve rehearsed simply be there and move through me.
I’ve realised that I’ve been putting most of my attention and focus on my work, and that the personal role of who I am becoming starts to loosen up. It can be as simple as making small talk; gosh, that was like something that I’ve still learned until this moment. To be honest, small talk is the only thing that my system hasn’t learnt as much as the other things that I’ve been practising on myself.
It leads me to a second point. Getting to know yourself so damn much is one of the pivotal things to have, which means each purpose that you truly want to have in your life will come from how much time you’ve invested in you and yourself. It’s through how you can genuinely listen to the inner voice that’s been waiting for you to notice before the noise does something within you.
For me, I’ve just learned to listen back to something that used to bring benefits within me as a way of bringing the roles that I’ve been letting them sleep for quite some time. Well, one of the things I’ve discovered myself was that, when I re-listened to the same podcast just this morning, the layers of what I’ve got were coming from different messages of what I’ve gained 2 years ago.
2 years ago, we were coming from finding myself and who I truly am. This morning is a reminder for me to keep continuously opening myself to a new, unexpected life, rather than just a rigid, strict structure of what I thought it was. Meaning, to have what I want now doesn’t mean I should abandon the other part of myself.
The part of myself who can do work in a different workplace took me to a different environment that I’ve never been to before, learning something that is aligned with the work industry that I do now… Well, I meant, to be honest, everything that is happening through me right now is coming from the internal role of who I’ve become that will always move forward to another direction of what life will surprise me with.
It is just that recognisability and availability of what I can choose to actually put my attention on to put myself, and just allow myself to continuously put work inside. And I guess that’s what life sounds like: a future destination that I’ve built for myself. A strong emotional resilience and inner certainty of what I’ve chosen every time without getting distracted by something that is not meant for this character of who I am becoming now.
And I can guarantee it is never about words of affirmation or thinking harder, but the internal feeling of certainty that you have about something that you want, and you just start to create from that internal space of who you already see yourself as. There will be a moment of doubt and fear, but you can always immediately return to that inner feeling of certainty about who you are. And that’s how you will get that dream life of who you want to be.
I know these feelings can feel so intimidating that puts us on the same level of comfort; therefore, I’ve specifically created this restoration space to be your little companion for your becoming journey:
This world is just a neutral playground and a simple facilitator of what your inner soul needs right now. So, the more you invest your time in each role of who you are becoming, the more life will just keep giving you who you are. Stop entertaining the beliefs that you’ve known deep down no longer serve you; rather than stick with that one specific belief of who you are without needing any external validation or reassurance, because you already know that future life that sealed under your name in the first place. You’ve been just practising the role now until your body can start to feel so familiar and start recognising it as a new home to live in.
And that’s how you win the games. It is not through what this external world does to you, but from a recognition of how your body can put its own meaning, story, and experience through your life’s existence. So, start to normalise silence and stillness as something that this universe is preparing you for.
Because during this silence season, you will start to be able to recognise what is meant for you to begin with, the purpose of life that you actually want to experience, and the type of person you want to become.
Therefore, the next step after you know what you want is to start to create this new motion of who you are becoming.
For me, moving my body before starting my day is a crucial thing to do. Taking myself on a morning walk and listening to that specific podcast of who you are becoming will put my mind in the right space before the world does. Well, therefore, since I’ve learned that listening to a podcast that truly can nourish my soul can actually quietly change my life, I created one that came from the life experiences that I’ve had over the past years:
I’ve realised how much mental capacity and emotional resilience came from those seasons of who I was before. To be able to say no to a lot of things that used to make me feel alive, specific environments that used to entertain me so much, the lifestyle that put me in so much comfort but no longer nourished my soul…
Secondly, it was to be fully intentional with what I’ve put to my mind. When I was in that becoming, the brain will still continuously tried to have something to be chewed on, as gesture of “maybe this is a sign for me” or “reassurance” or “validation”, it because the mind still capture “nothing is happening”, which is like a danger of why the hell everything is not working, am i doing wrong here.. Whereas the truth is, it was coming from the place of me untangling each identity that is no longer served me, so I can show up more intentionally that came from an inner alignment from who I am and what I purposely want to do for my life right now.
I’ve remembered the most type of playlists that I’ve listened to were those with an HZ frequency to just make me feel more calm and innerly regulated. It is the way of how I teach my system that you are no longer in danger and you are safe without needing to always stay on or anticipate each moment that you’ve had right now. Perhaps, to take a slower breath, or having that 5-minute break just to soak in the air outside and go back.
Thirdly, it is about how you can maintain your nervous system to stay regulated. It means you can bring yourself to a high energy on a specific moment where you needed that to happen and go to a neutral, normal state back when the moment has passed. It’s the up-and-down state that your body can capture without letting your mind overthink or analyse the moment that has already passed. To maintained your nervous system to stay regulated is that system who recognize when to be in that fight or flight mode vs digest or rest mode, and I’ve create this article about this specific topic:
The Day My Nervous System Remembered Home
Welcome back to my article, where the only thing that exists here is through an alignment frequency between each other that perhaps puts us all together in this same intimate lounge where we get to interact with each other or maybe just feel between us.
It means everything that you are doing is coming from that self-trust in each moment and situation that you can hold without overanalyzing things that do not even exist. That self-trust of everything that is moving through you is only a facilitator of a chapter that you can choose how to internally experience by how you choose to listen and respond to what is happening to you right now. And each internal role will always have that expiry date in order for your new life to arrive fully as that new beginning that your body can perceive. Therefore, this article is specifically created for the mind that need an extra reassurance to fully let go of something that is no longer served your journey:
Every Version of You Has an Expiration Date
The consistency of the role, through how you choose to breathe inside the specific storyline, does truly need to be maintained. Not through the kind of pretending you can just do or immediately go into performance mode… Rather than staying true to yourself, every motion itself shapes who you really are based on the repetition itself. Repetition means the awareness that stays inside your body, living consistently in alignment with who you are.
As we all know, humans have been reprogrammed as fearful creatures. It means something that made you feel fear the most; you just need to create a new repetition of living oppositely until your body can start to perceive it as something as normal for you.
Well, that’s how you will get each experience to always work in your favour. It’s all through that creativity- meaning story that your mind mostly intuited until the future life that you’ve wanted to have came to your life’s existence now. Before then, what you’ve needed to do is just to keep rehearsing that future role inside your life now.
Your Subconscious Besties,
Liona
