To keep your nervous system regulated is through a mindfulness intentional task that your body chooses to do for yourselves. It’s to move inside your body, not lifting upward but grounded, means to be able to feel the heaviness of your feet, the air soaked under the skin, to be able to feel safe without needing to always anticipate on each situation and moments, to not re-think about the conversations that has been passed a while ago.

Everything in life is only coming from the mind of what you’ve been doing for yourself. So, to be able to catch that is through intentional breath inhale and exhale daily as a gesture of "I am a living human being whose breathing right now," or to just simply exist without needing your mind’s permission. It was this “life should be perceived as simple as it gets”, and that was shockingly threatened for my system at the first place when I used to think life is something that needed to be earned, whereas in reality it was simply coming from the narrative mind’s story that you’ve been feeding for most of your entire life. 

The narrative itself that your present self shall be the one who takes the lead is to keep your nervous system calm; in a way, it can understand precisely the moment when it was the time to be in fight or flight and can go to that rest-and-digest mode immediately. Which means emotions are no longer something that puts your life existence, rather than your present self, that is coming from the state of low and high energy that you can put up with. 

Well, there is this present self that you can start to feel inside your body that has no emotions except just that consciousness that is moving through life that you currently have right now. To keep it moving forward means to let your mind know that the present self of who we are now is through a different attention and role that you choose to play for yourselves. I started to understand what it meant by highs and lows; it came from that emotions experience intensity that your nervous system used to be the only thing they understood for. 

And when you quit from that, the nervous system will only act through the lenses of integration. It means only what comes from the state of how you choose to respond consciously, like what an obviously normal human being does. It was like not each moment or situation became something that the system entertained through specific states, but rather it became a set of life that is more stable and fluid. Means your body started to live through sensation and repetition. The sensation of cold under your skin, or hot as a gentle nudge of softness, and the way we continuously move our body and use our mind to just pay attention to the purpose and goals of what we tend to achieve in life.  

That’s why in this modern life, a lot of “wellness” and detoxing digital media started to reappear; it somehow came from more of a woken-up spiritual who sees the real illusion of what was before it appeared through. A retreat to simply take their minds off from their phone, sauna, and cold plunges (sensation), nonetheless, to just keep bringing their real present-self back into the present moment. To not react means when your awareness can just focus on the breath, heaviness of the feet, and sensation truly. However, there were some moments when you were mistaken and curious about scanning; it was that when the awareness was able to stand inside your own body but not to see the world because, deep down, she wasn’t feeling safe and might still perceive herself as in danger. And to make your body feel safe again through repetition of putting yourself inside that environment over and over again. But this time, the way you show up will come from how you can walk yourself out inside your body without scanning. Scanning means when your eyes are focused on people, rather than your own body. 

So truly being a human only came from the level of safety that we put ourselves inside the life that we have right now. The safety that came from how we can stay inside our own without scanning the room, constantly anticipate, and do something that you’ve never intended to. It’s how much you can stay available in your body without going to the mind immediately. It’s the high and low state and how much your system can metabolize it and get back to normal quicker. 

Your Subconscious Besties,

Liona