It’s been a while since I put my feet back inside this article to create something that might bring new enlightenment through the back of your skin. This week has been such an interesting one. I am currently on the Gold Coast and have been turning off my brain for quite some time, and it was such a nice reset that I never knew I needed. Anyway, I’ve been having this quiet realisation that’s been weighing inside my mind that I think it can help you to get where you need to be.

First things first, I want to tell you the most important thing that you might underestimate is the power of keeping that muscle repetition that makes your body feel safe and alive inside. It’s that movement that you create using your alignment that makes you feel that you are moving forward in that direction, to that destination. For me, I haven’t realized until I met my old friends that I met 3 years ago when I was still living in Brisbane. Man, when I said that, I’ve felt like I was that new soul who met that old-skin reflection that made me spiral for a little bit, although I saw it from that perspective; one great thing actually happened that made me get this realisation.

That oldest type of safety that used to be chipped inside my skin like a vaccine that I never knew I needed. It was that night I arrived; it was those old bust memories of that identity that I used to entertain that made me feel overwhelmed, that I couldn’t sleep, and the next morning, I went to the beach. When I was back, my friend turned up with a Christian religious preacher on the screen, and I took a seat and just listened. I didn’t realise the tears were going out from my eyes, and it was my body that gave me that sensation of “this used to be our safety home”. And after that moment, I can feel my body exhaling the deepest breath that I never knew I needed. It was how much work I put into my body that everything was showing through my eyes. Guess what? That was my future self who gave me the comfort of what I (the mind) needed that time. It was that our souls and minds are all merged, working together to keep us alive. Truth be told, I knew that everything was fine and there was nothing to be worried about, but it was that conscious mind that was based on that old wiring, and I chose to entertain it, which led me to that specific stimulation reality that made me feel, "This is what was happening.” It’s that mind, body, and soul alignment that make your life coherence based on how you want to feel as “safety”. Safety means your system can hold that illusion of “nothing is happening” without letting your mind take that as everything is uncertain; you might be in danger. It’s about which lenses you consistently put your awareness into until it becomes your default system.

This point leads me to a second point that I believe is extremely important to keep us grounded. That structure of what your body will recognise as “safety” is based on what you want. For me, I am no longer really safe walking if I don’t let my body feel grounded to the earth first. Since my mind just gave me that clarity of my religious belief, I choose for myself the first thing in the morning to listen to a podcast or video about that specific topic to get my nervous system regulated, and then I take myself for a walk to get that future self embodied inside my body. It’s what I knew that when my system gave me that anxious sensation, it meant she wanted to get a little bit of comfort through the spirituality that my family used to raise me. I didn’t realise this because everything has been great, which led me to become less earthly but more living in the mind that creates that illusion of “I want to consistently have this type of day internally because of how aligned I feel and how to show up to the world." That led me to become a paranoid girly who was subconsciously looking for danger. It will always be body and mind later; you can’t do the opposite when you want to inhabit your future role inside.

Lastly, it would be this motto that I want you to fully live in: “Life will always be moving forward, so will you.” It’s that level of your awareness that is eager to keep growing into a different person based on who you believe you are. That preach that I watched 2 days ago, he told me about how God wants to test your faith, and most humans are most likely living inside their memories; it doesn’t need to be bad; sometimes it was great." But that gesture is what keeps you stuck in that same world, and you knew deep down you deserved much better opportunities in this world. The lesson that I learnt that time was that I chose to listen to what he said, and man, my mind tried to tell me that “you already know where you need to go”, but when I stopped letting my mind tell me that and, rather, took that action to actually listen inside my body, it was that I got what I needed to hear. It’s that most consistent comfort of that identity that used to keep you alive and that keeps you small without you even realising. Living in this world is about being in constant inhabiting a new, different person in the way you show up to the life that you have now. The more you breathe inside that main character that smells like your future destiny, it's where life will keep revealing what’s meant for you to change, leave, and move forward. It’s that you create that space by being fully immersed in that certain state of blank canvas without collapsing into some specific mind-narrative making. For me, I learnt to keep my awareness grounded to the earth in a way of never-ending learning as my future self that’s living inside my body, waiting to be released without letting my ego get in the way of “I think I am doing amazingly perfectly aligned until every movement that I did came from that intention of perfectionism that came from controlling that was based on lacking groundedness, a.k.a. anxiety.”

Living as a human is about who you let that consciousness stay permanently inside your body through that repetition of what safety feels like, through that sensation of how your body gives it to you. It's always been through that sensation inside, rather than what your mind is telling you.

Your Subconscious Besties,

Liona