What, if anything, that is happening to you right now is simply coming from your old manifestation? It was like when the mind had just been catching up so damn late that it shaped the way you choose to respond to the life that you’ve experienced currently right now
Well, welcome back to this space, a space of constant becoming to be someone who moves like one who knew that the future sealed under your name would never go anywhere, rather than continuously rippling the momentum back to the life that you have.
Here is the thing that you might want to prepare yourself with. The first thing you’ve started to be aware of is a good start, but when it becomes just awareness without action, it amounts to the queen of ignorance.
Ignorance might stem from a fear that, if you take that unfamiliar action, the world might collapse or react in a way your mind has calculated for you. However, when it comes to living inside the life that sounds like your dream life, there will be no more such thing as calculating, anticipating, and rehearsing what you should act for the next 2 hours or repeating the conversation that’s been way past the deadline, rather than a blank canvas of a new beginning the minute you open your eyes.
It means it is a new day for you to start showing up as someone who practices how the future self will act in that ordinary space between your life. It was more like less dwelling; just doing that came from the inner certainty of that stubborn version of you who knew that the future that you want will become yours to begin with. Which puts you into a place where there will be no such thing as “I will try this tomorrow,” because why the hell do those thoughts even appear as someone who is already living as that future role inside their life existence now?
Which means it might be that you still came from a state of not fully living in it, perhaps still hesitate about who you are, or are not fully certain about the capability of what you have and can as a person.
Well, that means the role that you’ve been playing still came from the place of the old roles that you’ve been just playing all along. Because here’s the thing: Living in a human body means having this soul or a character that drives and moves using this body of yours. As a matter of fact, each attention, focus, experiences that you’ve captured in your mind came from that psyche that you’ve let use this vessel of yours to experience the life that you currently have.
So, this is the free will that you’ve either used for your own advantage or by playing safe. Safe means you can either keep wanting to live differently but still dwell on the same specific situation over and over again, or you start to look within yourselves and start to reflect on the type of action that you’ve patternly chosen and decided without even knowing what is truly happening right now.
The goal here is to become so conscious of each action, decision, and intention of what you are doing for yourself so that each experience will become something that you choose consciously, that only came from the role that you’ve purposely let them stay inside your body. Not coming from the repetition of reaction through past roles, but from who you are right now. However, to know who you are is to have that capacity to recognize that as something that is obvious for you to take. Therefore, I’ve created this 1:1 Restoration Space to become your soft companion that can help to guide the inner soul who wants to experience something that is coming from your heart:
To experience anything that you want is by starting to untangle each old script that came from your subconscious reflex through the previous roles that you’ve rehearsed for most of your entire life. It’s when the body becomes so familiar with that movement that it becomes the only thing you know how to do in that specific situation or experience.
However, when you want to experience something that captivates your mind, the only thing you need to do is to just create this new inner character through consistency of repetition until the body starts to remember itself. It means letting people and the environment that you used to breathe in get mad at you because of how much growth and evolution you have through the way you decide and act, which only came from a place of “This is who I am,” and this is the way I choose to respond to something that is currently happening to me right now.
It was like you wanted to reorganize your closet inside your body by giving these pieces of daily evidence that came from the quality of your new belief that you’ve started to plant inside your life through the way you act that is only accordingly aligned with who you are currently built.
Each piece becomes new evidence that the mind will capture as something normal for you to experience. And the more you’ve let your body understand that this is the level of safety that we can experience, the more you will just allow yourself to exist without thinking.
As a matter of fact, the only thinking that should exist comes from something that’s aligned with who you are right now. For me, to start finding a new place near the beach so I can just write and be there anytime I want and just have this morning walk with new scenes. How beautiful that was/exciting.
Life is like a long journey; how exciting that can be when you plant the right seeds through how intentionally you nurture the mind through each attention that only comes back from what you want to experience. Not through the world’s lenses, or the constant repetition of what you put your mind into, but who you are as this essence of the soul that lives inside your body.
Yesterday was such an interesting place to be in. I love myself so much; I went to a morning hot mat Pilates, ended with a nice coffee, and walked on the beach. Then I went home, and I’ve started to have these heavy aches inside my body. I told myself that what was happening—it’s been a while since this kept happening—but I’ve been just ignoring it.
Rather than taking another sip of the phone, I’ve laid down and just let my body rest; the tears came out, and all those emotional processes that my body hasn’t been experiencing for a long time started to spill out through my eyes.
It was like the body gave me a signal: I’ve been exhausting myself doing this thing that is not aligned with who we are, but you’ve been continuously reaching for more without looking within us back here.
It was like this betrayal. That my man’s mind has been doing for the true essence of who I am that I’ve been repetitively doing for myself, that I thought was the right thing to do, but it all turned out to be coming from a place of distraction.
Distracting myself from the old grief that is not fully processed by the body by continuously doing whatever the mind taught me was the right thing. It can be from a place of starting to entertain more of the phone that has some human conversation, which sometimes the psyche doesn't want to answer, but coming from a place of “not knowing what to do that can catch my attention,” that leaked immediately to some circumstances that the system taught it was what she needed.
Or, it leaked to a stimulation that came from a repetition of fear to face the real thing that’s been waiting for me to be released. Until yesterday, I didn’t touch my phone and decided to do a cleaning. It turned out to be a 3-4 hour-long cleaning day at home that I never thought the system had been needed all along. During that session, it was like this weird thing the mind’s been taught: I should be doing these specific things or that, but I’ve immediately channeled it to this specific focus thing until it's done; I immediately can feel myself again. And to be able to feel yourself is to recognize that specific belief of who you are at the beginning.
Not from what this world’s been taught you, but the real you who's been waiting for the mind to be noticed; therefore, I’ve created this 1:1 Restoration Space for the overstimulated mind that’s been constantly moving through the world’s expectations:
The clarity I’ve gained, though—time is such an illusion, because it only comes from this inner coherence of what specific attention you choose your mind to continuously focus on until it brings that momentum back to your life. The momentum of what you’ve been focusing on came from repetition until it became a thing that the mind put its own meaning back on.
And here’s the thing that is fascinating me the most:
Sometimes, when the nervous system says to us that I don’t want to do anything, you should start to take that as an answer and just rest. Or when you feel tired, but the mind asks you to do something else, listen to your body because the body comes from the psyche that came from the true essence of who you are.
The man’s mind only comes from a repetition of what you’ve been doing the whole time. The power itself came from each decision that came from how much you’ve listened to your body and soul about where you’re at.
Another thing that just caught my attention is how much of the ongoing conversation that came from your phone might have caused the brain to think that “the body is in danger if you don’t do something about it right now.”
It took me only 1 month until my body immediately thought that way because of the constant replies to the conversation that she thinks it was important to do, or else you will get punished, the world around you will collapse, you need to do something, or….
Whereas in reality, that huge amount of screen time that you can replace with doing 45 minutes of walking, reading, or exercise will truly give the body that new piece of evidence that you are fine and you don’t need to be constantly on all the time.
It was truly about a new evidence-focused piece of how you put the body into this new repetition of what safety is until she understands the war has been over and you are safe.
Because the truth is, life is not just a constant talking, reacting, and conversation and being in that state of always high energy, but it can be something as simple as starting to spend 1-2 hours of your day to create something that is coming from how your future self will normally do, or starting to take care of what you eat daily that is coming from a self-love of taking care of this body that we have. Start living; it is only happening right now through the action and decision that you choose to do from a place of inner certainty that will bring the life that you want back to your eyes. Therefore, if you are in this season of currently working on yourself, I’ve created this Restoration Library for you to be able to practice it on your rhythm:
It was like an intimate relationship with each part of you, where you truly know each one of them, which sounds like it will bring you to become better each day, no matter what the decision and action that you choose for yourselves.
The more you live that only from who you are and how you choose to respond, the more joy, ease, opportunity, and love will just start to show up whenever and wherever you go. It's because you no longer think, but just allow yourself to repetitively exist as someone who already knew they earned that place all along.
And from that place, each experience and moment will become something that you can recognize as a reward, growth, lesson, and evolution. That’s how you knew that you would always have that capacity to show up for yourself, for the life that you currently have, and always become the best version of yourself.
Your Subconscious Besties,
Liona
