Greetings from the part of you that never stopped whispering, even when you got busy listening to the world…

Gentle reminder:

Talking about time, I want to remind you that time is a simple illusion of how you fully show up inside that role identity that’s coming from yourself internally. It’s been a while since I noticed myself start to become what I envisioned myself last year… And the funny thing is, this time it’s not my mind that gives that "clarity" but rather my own existence itself that creates that experience of how I want reality to give me who I truly am. Truth be told, there are times when I get scared because it’s that perfectionism identity of me that was disguised as wanting to control the outcome, appearing so much that when I start to live, I simply want to make everything so perfect, like I did yesterday, whereas in fact, the minute I did that, my identity immediately switched up as “I am someone who wants to replicate yesterday’s”. Also, truth be told, there is no such thing as yesterday because every day is a new beginning. Therefore, anything can happen in the blink of an eye, deliciously unexpectedly. I also realised that every movement that came from a place of fear or doubt would make half of my brain disappear just for the sake of entertaining that false illusion, whereas the truth is that what you need to get done is simply today’s identity that you show up with in the world. PERIODT!!!

To get there, there is a cheat code that I just figured out recently. The most important thing you want to know is to keep your nervous system regulated, which means you understand how your body works and how to be around those you want to make her feel as safe as possible through the way you show up to the world. For me, I love to take her for a candlelit speaker with a hot shower first thing in the morning before I start my day, and before the day starts, I take myself for a quick morning walk to give my body a statement of: “Today is a new day.” These two elements really brought back my awareness to stay inside my body the whole time when the world tried to pull me apart. I also found myself preferring to bring a book instead of playing with my phone, because I recently noticed that the minute I open my phone and see all those notifications, she most likely puts herself in a state of fright. The last favourite thing that she loves is that weighted blanket that she got that keeps her nervous system intact and heavy in her bed. These are the things that make my awareness recognise what safety feels like. Therefore, when she knows herself so damn well that she couldn’t be bothered to show up to the world as someone who feels safe, whatever is happening in her day-to-day life.

The second thing is that when you already understand that level of safety inside your body, you want to start creating that identity of how you want to let your mind give that 5% of how you want to feel and experience it. By all means, we want to start to think of new possibilities life can offer to you.

The truth is, everything that you want has been sitting inside your body waiting for you to notice it in terms of how your thoughts align with how you show up to the world. It’s that the minute you put your mind to that new state of new possibilities of life that you can experience, you start to absorb that new feeling and start living inside of it so much that it becomes a new role that sticks with you internally. It’s like your soul being upgraded, which leads you to rip off the entire old programming that you’ve been living under without your consent. It really is about how consistently you future-rehearse yourself inside your body until it starts to create that new way of how you move forward in the world itself. It’s about how much you can hold that uncertainty sensation, how you channel it as normal until it becomes the way you move through your life. For me, I’ve been living under a spell of: “I am such a powerful writer, and my voice will change people’s lives.” That internal feeling of who I am that I stay within so much until I start to remember who I truly am. Life is about how you let your inner soul be the one that dictates how you want reality to be played through your external eyes. It’s about knowing where you are; therefore, reality only becomes a simple messenger itself. It’s about letting the invisible take root in daylight, which will be the main topic that I am currently working on for my book. Or perhaps that’s what Christian people called it: “living by faith”. Nonetheless, this is how I built that main character in a way that I perceived myself within.

To be fully living inside the script that smells like your destination is to be able to fully hold onto that full set of inner coherence so much that you no longer sabotage yourself but continuously move forward to the next level of life that it will offer you. And that inner alignment needs to be built based on how consistently you show up inside that new role until it becomes your default system permanently. It’s about how much capacity you can hold without collapsing into those meaning-making narratives. My favourite quote that I always remind myself is: “Life will always be moving forward, so will I." It’s about how much you dedicate yourself fully to your own life that you no longer react but simply respond to what is happening to you right now, because, at the end of the day, you know so damn well that the universe will always be working in your favour, and everything that is happening will lead you to where you want to be.

The final words from me today are this. When something happens, and it leaves you devastated, it is often because you have been living inside your mind for so long that you forgot to pour water back into the garden that had quietly dried out and was waiting to be tended. And you have to keep remembering this: Reality only mirrors the level of your consciousness right now. So, when you find yourself in a state of reacting most of the time, it's most likely because you are, and if you don’t like it, then change rather than choosing that comfort without finding the real roots behind that mechanism.

Your Subconscious Besties,

Liona