Why do I keep repeating the same pattern?
Well, I used to think about why this situation keeps happening to me over and over again. I did the work, cut off people from my life, got into a healthy routine, and busted myself with a positive affirmation and motivation. But yet everything seems like a repeating cycle that keeps haunting me everywhere I go… It was like this feeling of, like, a permanent life will be just forever working this way, somehow affecting the way I behave on each decision and movement that I did for myself, whereas my mind truly understands that it was not this way. But somehow the way my body and the reflexes that I did for myself were just continuously working that way….
And the truth that might hurt you is that to change how you can fully experience is never coming from the mind and thinking, but rather through a new type of signal that you put your body into a new repetition of living. It means to be more conscious of the motion of how you live. It was this inner character that you’ve perhaps let stay inside you for most of your entire life, because of how much comfort it provided you. The level of comfort that doesn’t require you to truly take that unfamiliar step and action that came from who you are. Perhaps, to show what your true opinion is in your workplace, or to take that new opportunity that you never tried on, perhaps to communicate what you feel more without putting emotions.
The next important thing you need to know is that humans have been reprogrammed as creatures of fear. And to really change the life you have is to completely delete that fear or doubt from your system and just do it. To learn to take that courageous step without getting to immediate overthinking or self-analyzing needed to start with yourself. Each action that actually comes from who you are becoming, or a simple reaction that you’ve been doing for yourself.
It means every moment you are in right now, you start to put your body into a new evidence of acting out that role of who you are becoming. Perhaps to start listening more and respond to what your role is about, or take that opportunity without self-doubting yourselves and just see how life will provide you through the next step of your life direction. Or to start changing your mind from going to an immediate self-victim mode to a problem-solving-based one when it comes to a connection that you’ve had. The superpower of what humans have is that capability of adapting and evolving so quickly that everything around them can simply either become a facilitator of what you need or something that you’ve despised.
To put the meaning itself on your own is to let the right inner role of who you are be the one who sits inside your body and moves through you with that fullness of knowing you will be able to get everything sorted out, because that’s who you are. That’s the normal definition of life: that you have an ordinary experience in your daily lives. It means to always know there is no such thing as a permanent identity, but each part of who you are becoming right now- that you’ve chosen how to show up for yourselves- that’s simply coming from the role; that’s coming from someone who's no longer afraid or doubting themselves when it comes to experiencing the life that you want.
To show yourselves, that is, to give your body new evidence of the experience of who you want to be through knowing which part of you still somehow got consumed by that specific fear and doubt when it comes to showing up for yourselves. And what you need to do is to act yourself in that specific situation of what you used to fear in a way that you will act differently until it becomes normal and obvious for your body to do.
One day, you woke up, and you no longer think the same way you used to, but naturally, you move differently, and somehow it becomes just inevitably obvious for you to do, and you’ve realized life only comes from a repetition of how you showed up right now that will ripple that back to you sooner or later.
Also, I’ve read this book by Neville Goddard that says what truly matters and everything that is only happening is “NOW.” As a matter of fact, there is no such thing as a past or future, but now. The now is in a way of who you’ve let the role that moves inside your body on that repetition of each action and decision until the body feels so familiar and just moving in that specific way.
The truth is your body doesn’t understand what opportunity means, achievement, location, social hierarchy, or just the role that you’ve infused yourself with constant thoughts and emotions about how you want to put that meaning back into your life.
So, to create a new pattern within you is just to become so entertained with your own beliefs about who you truly are. Your boss getting upset, you caught that as your own mental training for yourself to become more resilient and strong when it comes to improving your work performance. Or, instead of your body being called that as responsibility, you might catch that as your opportunity to grow, so when the life that you want arrives, you are no longer scared but ready to just live it.
Everything that is happening right now is a matter of the daily inner talking between you and who you are becoming that you prefer to live it. And the key here is not to look at what this world’s taught you as right or wrong, but rather to draw on your own beliefs when it comes to each category of the look you want to have.
It is your life. Therefore, the decision, action, purpose, and goal need to come from what you want, not through the world’s constant feedback that you immediately took as a personal hardship that immediately hurt your feelings, but your own narrative story that only you can put on your mind and heart whenever and wherever you are.
Your Subconscious Besties,
Liona
