The more life you choose to experience, the stronger your inner capacity is needed to perceive it as something normal to have.
Welcome back to this article that’s been known as a place to put yourselves in a state of the best version of yourselves by simply breathing inside the future avatar right now until your body is no longer bracing but allowing yourselves to fully live through the lenses of how you want to experience consistently.
A couple of days ago, I asked my mom this question: What’s the biggest dream that you always have inside your head, Mom? And I remembered she said she never needed to worry about money anymore, in a way that I could always spend whatever I wanted without needing to think twice… Well, I still remember she taught those exact answers 2-3 years ago, and, surprisingly, she got what she wanted?? In a way, it has been the life that she’s been living for her whole life…. The fact that, from what I’ve seen, she was blessed with a lot of opportunities and good things consistently…
However… the way she was still using that exact script, like when she was not having all these things, without realizing that just made my mind intrigued??? In a way, how she was still using the role that once made her survive 20-30 years ago, the lenses that she still absorbed through survival mode, as in her permanent motion in a way she spoke and acted, truly amazed me the most… It amazed me because with all those blessings and manifestations that she had, the way she lived was still the way she used to… Someone who has everything in this material world, yet the way she kept herself alive was through that reprogrammed script that once used to bring me into this type of life existence. Someone who doesn’t need to worry about money and the future, yet the way she thinks will always be through the lenses of “I will always be in constant danger if I don’t do this” and “I always need to be in control of everything,” but beneath the way she thinks, we see through the lenses of the 1990s. The way her mind has been reprogrammed through a constant doing over letting it be, because the way the mind has been believing this was who I am through the lenses of constant doing that made the present-self version of her disappear through that permanent role of performing for something that is truly no longer serving her anymore… Although, from how I perceive it, the life that she has now put her into those specific types of environments, treatments, and experiences that she subconsciously recalled as normal through the quality itself, but beneath how she chose to fill her life existence through the thoughts and emotions consistently…
The type of material world that she has now vs. the internal architecture as the way she chose through the lenses of survival vs. safety. It doesn’t cohere in a way that the mind will never capture all the safety of what she already experienced because the character who stays inside her body is still someone who experiences life through difficulty, fear, doubt, pain, intensity, or constantly looking for an external reassurance through every reaction that appeared… To perceive the life that you want is to simply practice the level of awareness that you choose to stay permanently inside your body through that repetition of the belief itself until it shapes the way you express and move inside the life that you have… It’s the intention that you want to achieve through the way you think about yourself that is aligned until it starts to mirror that back to your life.
The way I grew up, I am grateful I never worried about my finances, except for the emptiness that I used to have, in a way, having this internal feeling of “Something’s wrong with me” and “I feel like something is missing.” “Why do I not feel fulfilled, whereas the truth is I have ‘everything’ I want?” I remembered the way I think, always growing to be a better version of myself, yet still felt the same. I got myself to do a 75-day hard challenge, learning Pilates, baking, cooking, and a full set of routines that I gave that specific category as “self-growth.” All these things before, with the internal intention of what’s next? But I keep this all going without putting any doubt and fear emotions repetitively. Until the awareness inside of me somehow starts to change. In a way, how I start to perceive real life as a human being was... The way I start to see life is a simple inner agreement through how you choose to exist by putting the intention of what I want to build for myself… It was a quiet alignment between the way I move and act, so reality will simply provide that back to me. I am continuously moving forward in one role that starts to remind me of who I am through all this repetition that I choose for myself.
It whispered slowly to my ear that once I did all these, they were coming from a place of approval and proving to myself that I could do all of that, whereas the truth is these are just the ways we choose the lives that we want for ourselves. It’s the quiet, eerie “this is who I am” through repetition that will gradually move the character inside of me to someone else that’s better than who we were once. The changing lenses that started to reflect to me were through consistent repetition of the role that I chose to breathe in inside of my life. The motion of moving that I intentionally put myself into, without letting my emotions become the compass of my decisions. Therefore, this is the article about how I keep rehearsing the same role until my body starts to remember who I am.
The Role You Rehearse Becomes the Life You Live
It came to my attention that living as a human being truly comes from choosing a role and aligning your thoughts consistently until it becomes who you really are. Therefore, what struck me the most is the emotions beneath the behaviour that came as urgency, fear, doubt, scarcity, anticipation, hypervigilance, and choosing a subconscious reflex over cons…
It’s been a month since the universe put me into this chapter where my life was in a constant, unexpected shape that will put me into a new beginning that led me to spend time with my family and my dad, who is currently sick in the hospital. However, the way I perceive were no longer the entire future itself through one specific experience; rather, this new role that I’ve had has been writing my life story about this chapter without needing any different roles that I have gone through through this specific experience… It’s the oneness as the self that’s been categorized into different roles that the mind puts me inside—that motion of moving and acting itself—through rewriting the story based on thoughts and emotions that you choose to experience internally until it becomes the role that stays permanently when the universe starts to reveal every next movement back to my life. It’s the inner capacity that I am able to hold more without collapsing into some specific meaning-making. It was through each category inside your body that has repeatedly existed through that primary consistent belief that you always choose to live, so when life gets expanded, the foundation of life itself will come from an inner alignment that doesn’t get scattered easily with the way this world once taught you.
The more you can hold this wholeness alignment inside, the more of an avatar you can create through that new repetition itself through the way you filled your life existence with it… For me, the role that I currently played was coming from someone who built her life through writing, voice, and visibility. In between, it’s coming from a new role that came from a lens of hoping that whatever happens, my dad will get the best treatment and outcomes for his life, and what I can provide is through my presence of affection and letting the universe simply unfold this for my dad’s best situation, not mine. I also specifically created this article about me and my dad.
The Chapter I Never Wanted to Write
This article I specifically created for the love of my life. My dad. My superhero. My everything. My spiritual guru. Everything in one, I will say.
The truth I’ve been living through: aligning the belief itself through my own life right up until the universe wants to expand more life within me through this experience. I am currently putting this to a real-world situation that I have zero choice but to allow myself to move through. The holding without collapsing that my character is currently in this season… The way I hold it is through the hygiene level of my present self; that is, I consciously choose to exist inside this motion of what is happening through me right now. The situation that led me to hold more conversation through how my family thinks and acts, my dad’s, almost 24/7, I spent my time in the hospital, and everything in between… What helps me the most is the conscience itself, which stays inside my body, and I choose to sit with it, not through escaping but by being present… Holding more life is never about being loud or waiting for something “big” to arrive, because unfortunately that’s just a body that needs more grounded safety repetition until it becomes normal through the way the mind changes itself. This is the article I wrote in this void that I currently have
The Life My Soul Is Learning to Hold
A character inside your body that consistently exists through how you choose to think and act until it becomes who you really are. It becomes the role that stays inside your soul like a new garden that’s been planted through how much alignment you choose to act within. Alignment means you are persistently stubborn to stay inside that storyline that you …
Lastly, the only person who can save you is yourself. The version who no longer lives through the script of memories and survives, but through the motion of moving forward through the awareness that sees the potential of what life can offer—it shall be enough evidence for you to start choosing that character in a way of putting that intention into your body until your body starts to remember who you really are. The continuous motion until reality starts to put that label back through your external world, never through how urgent or hard you do it, a simple inner agreement between your intention and the expression itself to the life that you have.
Your Subconscious Besties,
Liona
